Life is funny sometimes. It has been 47 days since I left my day job. A lot of the things I thought would happen in those 47 days happened in a huge way. A lot of them did not. The “did nots” resulted in my waking up yesterday morning at 4am in a sudden all-out panic attack about money, bills, rent, and surviving. I have been bound and determined to make an art career work and have believed in it with unwavering faith. Therefore I did not line up a backup plan or part time job or anything… because this had to work. It’s my dream. If you believe in your dreams you can make them come true, right?
What I’ve also learned in 47 days is that making your dreams come true takes a huge amount of drive and there will be pitfalls. There will be hard days. There will be countless times when you question yourself and doubts creep in. But if you want something bad enough, those things don’t matter. It’s not easy and you have to work for it. I think that’s why a lot of people give up on their dreams; they hit hard times and just go back to living like many people do, taking jobs they don’t like out of necessity. Kind of coasting through life like some sort of lazy river ride.
At the risk of sounding like a total cheeseball, I’m staying on my crazy white water rapid ride. Yesterday almost broke me. My creativity has been suffering these past few days because my worries about money are 100% dominating my thoughts. I took a long, late-night walk last night to clear my head and kept telling myself to keep going. I want this, more than I have ever wanted anything. My creativity and love for every single thing in life must dominate my thoughts and feelings at all times. There is no other way.
SO, that (long-windedly) being said, I’m embarking on a project and calling it 40 Works In 40 Days. Why 40? Because it just feels right and lately I’m learning to follow my instincts. Every day for 40 days, starting today, I am going to create an original piece of art. I’m not going to worry about subject, composition, or media. The purpose of this for me is to create, to remember my passion, to keep moving towards my dream.
To keep a sort of rhythm, every work will be on a 9″ x 9″ square of Canson watercolor paper. I’ve decided to list them on Etsy, for $47.00: 47 marking the days it has been since I left a very unhappy place to go after my wildest dream. I will not be making any prints, because I also need to learn to let things go. Each piece will be signed, dated, and titled with the day number (ex. “Day 11”) on the back. There will also be a typed card explaining the purpose of this project: that this is your life and you owe it to yourself to do something amazing with it.
Works will be available in my Etsy shop here: http://www.jenndalyn.etsy.com.
Here’s to Day 1